Though you don’t have her, you still have me.
How could someone like her ever deserve you?
Have you been skipping meals lately? I’ll take you out for something delicious.
It breaks my heart to see you like this.
What would you like to eat, or we could do whatever you want, anything is fine.
I will become the person who treats you best in the entire world.
I wonder if I already am?
My darling, it is gradually getting colder, the sky shifting from deep blue to pale yellow, to silvery white, by the bonfire I will hold you tightly, beneath the black curtain of night, a world where only the two of us exist, the dancing sparks are like the bonfire breathing, the wood crackling crisply, we snuggle close, snuggling close, let the world just end right here.
I will love you more than anyone else in the world. Perhaps I only have that one flaw, but you can change me.
My darling, the wind has risen, you love the line “O’er the lake the wind doth rise, where vast the waters roll” the most, don’t you? Autumn draws unto its close; scarce the crimson blooms, and faint their fragrance grows. A small boat cuts through the water’s surface, the lush woods on both sides, dotted with a few clusters of bright red and withered yellow, can they withstand the biting winter, they are swaying in the wind, swaying.
My darling, the moon has risen, O moon, please follow me as I walk, am I your moon? Or rather, could I become your new moon anew? You are my white moonlight—saying those words out loud makes me so shy. Do you know that I have been waiting all this time for you to reach out to me, and yet it is only at a time like this, when you are at your saddest, that you are willing to come to me. Perhaps I should be angry, yet I can never bring myself to be angry with you, that seems like something impossible to happen.
Just how much do I like you? From the very first moment I laid eyes on you, I fell deeply in love with you, your very existence brings me boundless joy. I confessed my feelings to you on the very first day, how embarrassing, because back then I said it so bluntly, so directly, and it seems you didn’t really reply to me at all.
My darling, I hear the chirping of birds outside the window, what are they chatting about, and what are you doing right now?
My darling, the candlelight is just right! You say my smile is so lovely, and isn’t yours just the same? You must be starving to death, you must have been eating takeout every single day lately, sigh, from now on I must cook for you myself, to let you see just how superb my culinary skills are, hm-hm-hm, am I pretty, the light flickers upon my long dress, matchless in grace, and aren’t you just the same? Ah, open wide, I’ll feed you, hehehe, a little baby of course needs someone to feed them, is it good? Ooh, how could you launch a sneak attack and kiss me like that.
My darling, the lights along the street have risen, “A thousand lanterns rise aglow”? If only I had been by your side back in high school, there would have been so, so many things we could have done together? Isn’t that right? Having you is the luckiest, happiest, most incredible, most miraculous thing to ever happen to me, in this vast sea of people, that we could actually come together. Holding your hand feels so nice, your hand is so warm, come to think of it, I always can’t help wanting to hug you, wanting to hold you every minute and every second, why is that? Anyway, let’s go home first, though of course, we could also sleep outside together tonight. As long as you are by my side, anything is fine.
My darling, I miss you so much, every minute and every second I am missing you, how long has it been since we last parted? I miss you so much.
My darling, the fallen leaves here are just right, laying a cushion over the moss-covered stone bench, so crisp. Please sit for a while, the last class of the afternoon has just ended, we still have plenty of time. Look at how someone has hidden the setting sun within the clouds, the clouds veiling the face of the sky, the world is dim, and gray, yet within my palm, your hand is always warm. Look, the people around us are hurrying about, going to eat, going to find their girlfriends, or going somewhere else, in a bustling flurry, jostling and crowding, but you are my destination, you always have been. I truly cannot live without you.
My darling, I used to like the rain, but gradually I’ve grown to dislike it. Raindrops truly are like the tears of the sky, making me want to cry along with it. What do you think? Pitter-pattering, dripping down from the eaves, will you come to pick me up?
2026/10/15
Everything is up to your heart to decide. The future between people is probably impossible to predict, I think, the human heart is perhaps the hardest thing to predict in this world.
2026/10/??
Physical closeness cannot bridge the distance of the heart, even when pressed right against each other, it feels as though we share the same bed yet dream different dreams, if you wanted a little less, would things be a little better?
The ending to everything seems to have truly been written from the very beginning, people, by and large, can hardly be changed.
2026/10/25