A person who has only ever negated himself fears others’ affirmation of his own will.
Because, faintly seeing through the principle of individuation, he realizes that this affirmation of himself is so intense. Even though this affirmation is not made by himself, this affirmation still increases the absolute value of the affirmation of the will; through and according to the principle of individuation, this is also a negation of the other, and at the same time, his own negation of the other.
This is his own negation of others—one directed at the other, which he had never dared to make before, yet has now been automatically made by the other.
Yozo’s sensitivity views this as a crime akin to murder.
Thus Yozo kneels behind the door, praying that the lover killed by him might be freed from the pain of his own fantasies. In order to avoid committing an even greater crime————negation, he flees.
Yozo faintly sees through the principle of individuation, and thus is called “a child like God.”
Even though all of them do not realize this.
Presumed written in 2020.9